Weight

Weight reduction from yesterday: 0.5 kg - 500 gr.

I weigh in when i get up in the morning, after morning pee. Go on and of the scale 5 times to get an accurate number, and does that with both our scales. Then i weigh throughout the day.. But its the morning number i use when i make notes.

I do

My biggest thinspiration at the moment is actually weddings. I just imagine the prefect wedding, with the perfect husband, the perfect place, church and of course, the perfect dress. Which i would be perfect in. And with out a doubt the prettiest in the room. Not only because i was the bride, most dolled up and fixed. But simply because i was the prettiest. And my husband would think "i married the prettiest one, the best one" and view the room and not see anyone looking better than me. And we all agree, that if my husband is to fantasize about the perfect wedding night - the bride is not fat. Your dress can be as pretty as you want, you dont pull it off if your fat. You can be as dolled up as you want, if your fat every thinner person in the room will look better.

Why wait for the wedding to start the wedding diet? I like to plan ahead, BE ahead.

Struggled with uploading and it just started raining, with a thunder & lightening storm so we're taking the internet. With other words - don't have time for more.

But, yeah, don't you wanna get married to? Tickles in my tummy. NEED A BOYFRIEND!

Bulimic Battle

I've downed the rest of the diet coke and giving it five minutes to blend with all the food.

This food:

200 gr of chocolate

190 gr cookies

200 gr of buttered griddle cake

200 gr of cheese doodles

330 gr of Napoleon Cake

1 buttered sandwich

1 serving tapas potatoes

1 serving with cereal with yoghurt & banana

1 big serving nachos w/ sour cream

1 1/5 liter of 0.1 % fat milk

1 1/5 l of diet pepsi

Put on Eminem, Recovery. Brb, gonna purge... in a plastic bag.

Today

I just finished cleaning my room. I put the clock on today to get up early and get things done. So now the room is clean, and I am currently bleaching my teeth with White Stripes. Since I live in Norway, and we don't allow selling White Stripes, I always have to beg friends who visit the states to stock up for me and bring home. haha

And at 1.pm Im going to get my nails done, its really about time, cause my they are not pretty looking so to speak!

After that Im thinking of hitting a sun studio. Its really sunny outside, but I don't like sunbathing outside like that. I will never ever lye out showing my stomach, so.. well, by tan turns out weird. And at last I will buy a new pack of laxatives

Tomorrow I'll be hitting the movies with Jonas & Espen to see Eclipse. That I look forward to. Andandand, 4 days 'til I turn 18! (In Norway that means Im aloud to drink. Not that, that has stoppmed me before though, haha).

Gee, this was an uninspired. Oh well.

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Linking it

I thought I'd share with you some of the websites i frequently visit concerning diets & weight.

We have my all time favorite:
The Skinny Website
Then there is:
Model Diet Plan
Celebrity Diet Doctor
Celebrity Diets
and i literally just stumpled upon this (with Stumbleupon):
Tips for a healthy happy life

I also visit alot of norwegian ones, but you guys probably don't even understand the language. But if you are interested, just make a comment and I'll fix it within a blink of an eye.

I also search alot around Youtube and ended up making a rather large playlist about the whole eating & eating disorder issue. You can find it here
I will recommend the following in the playlist (wont bother to link it though)
- Thin
- For The Love Of Nancy
- Perfect Body
- When Friendship Kills
- Super Skinny Me
- Living with size zero

Enjoy.

Thinspiration

I find thinspiration in most things. I wanna dare my self to say everything, but I wont. Its weird that when I see thinspiration all around in my life, how I still always seem to fail. Give in. Let temptation rule me...

Take orders from a cookie.

I bet alot of you judge me now. Maybe some even label me as a "wanna" (note to readers, the stupidest expression in eating disorder history. And supposedly the name of someone wishing for an eating disorder). I am not. I am however, bulimic. And I don't want to be. I want to be thin. And you don't become thin with bulimia.

Bulimia is probably the hardest battle I've ever fought, and is still fighting. It's sneaky, cruel and vicious, and let's not forget, oh so expensive.

I made a thinspiration-board some time ago, I won't show it though. Someone I know personally finding this blog would be bad enough... And it wouldn't exactly help that they found their picture on my collage of thinspiration. Not a risk I dare to take.

You will get plenty of my thinspiration in time anyways.

Your fat cell A, Sincerely.

Project Perfect

This blog is not about worshipping Goddess Ana, it is not about promoting Bulimia. Its a thinspirational diary of mine, because I suffer from an eating disorder. I am diagnosed, and in treatment or whatever you can call it. It does not matter, cause in the end all that matters is to become the perfect girl. To finish Project Perfect.

It will be a diary, I will post anything and everything I find thinspirational. From songs, to pictures, to videos, to happenings. I will post intake, outtake and weight difference. I will not though - post my actual weight. To much humiliation.

Welcome, to the world of Fat cell Anastasia.